Mixed Emotions..

Okay.. i'm having mixed emotions now... and no, i'm not homesick again.. lol

Went for pool tournament this morning.. the rules were that the tournament was double elimination.. means u have to lose two times to get eliminated.. so basically, if u lose once, u still get to play with all the people who lost once until u become the "winner of all the losers".. then u play the "winner of all the winners".. and u have to win that person TWICE.. because he hasn't lost....

SO it went like this.. i won my 1st game after a bit of motivation.. it was 2-2.. and i won 3-2.. The guys back in AC would call this "TAKING FULL ADVANTAGE".. lol.. or just giving false hope LOL..

After that was food time.. my opponent was rushing me.. so i had to like.. stuff down my pizza.. then go play that match with him.. and guess what, i lost 3-0 LOLOL.. oh the humiliation.... and people were surprised.. lol.. and so was I lol...

SERIOUSLY.. i duno wat came over me.. i was like missing EVERYTHING.. simple simple shot also kenot do LOL.. play worse than huiyin LOLOL.. SERIOUSLY.. i was like ZONED out.. man.. 3-0 sial.. and that threw me into the "loser" group... one more loss and i'm out.. and to get back into the competition, i had to win EVERY game after that...

WHICH I DID!! HAHAHA.. after that, i won match after match after match... 3-0, 3-0, 3-1, 3-1.. in total i played like 7 games.. all won.. then guess what, i had to play the guy that beat me in my 2nd round cos some dude beat him, and threw him into the "loser" part.. and so i did.. THIS time, i beat him 3-1.. like totally in his face LOLOLOL... Oh sweet sweet revenge... lol.. well then i played another guy, won 3-0.. and became the winner of all the losers.. (that sounds rather sad don't u think).. and that makes 9 rounds played.. But on the bright side.. being the "winner of all losers", confirmed me 2nd place in the whole tournament =)

9 games.. JUST to get to play with the winner of the winners.. the guy that hasn't lost.. who has only played like 4 games =.= because he won all.. SO two of us left in the tournament.. and thing is, he has a game in hand.. cos he hasn't lost yet.. for me to win.. i have to beat him TWICE in race to 3...

I beat him 3-1 the 1st round.. and then it was time for the FINALS... like.. if i win this, i'm the champion... and the BEST PART... it was down to 2-2.. means it was sudden death.. whoever won that rack won........

Yes, i know u people know that i lost okay.. let me rant about it a while 1st... =.= sheesh..

i missed 3 shots that was SUPPOSED to be easy... i think the stress finally ate into me.. 11 games i played ok.. i was tired and worn out.. i overcut one simple shot, and i gave him a free ball when he had one ball left.. the fantasticness... sigh...

But i don't deny, he was good.. dammit he's from the singaporian billiads association or something like that.. but he's from china LOL.. studied in singapore.. oh the top 3 were asians LOL.. we kinda made a deal to eliminate all the americans as early as possible LOL and we did hahahaa....

I COULD... COULDDDDD have won.... just lost focus in the last LAST shot.... oh well... looking on the bright side... 1st tournament in the US and i got 2nd place... that's not that bad.... =)

Plus i won 50USD... THAT'S 175 BUCKS FOR U PPL BACK IN MALAYSIA HAH... lololol

besides.. just to make myself happier.. i already have a pool cue, what would i do with another one? i'd prefer the cash =) hahahaha..... (plus mine is more expensive and looks nicer anyway LOLOL)

(although the cue was nicer than kingsley's new one HAHAHAHAHAHA)...

Not bad larh.. slowly slowly.. i'm sure there are more to come.. at least people here know who I am d.. nyahahaha...

Oh.. word of thanks to Sue Wei, whom without i'd never have made it this far in my pool career =) thanks.. sincerely.. thanks.. =)

2nd place.. that isn't THAT bad.. *round of applause to myself*

Lifeless out~ =)

FUTSAL IN ILLINOIS!!!

I'm happy i got my futsal. period.

But i'm sad it's not with EX... and i'm also sad that i won't be playing with EX for a very very very very very long time... and i'm sad the the futsal court isn't even a futsal court =.= let me explain..

This is the "court".. it's a multi purpose court, and well.. yeah...

So like.. yeah.. just look at the pics larh...

Not exactly the coolest thing to play on... ONLY thing good (or bad) about it is, the WHOLE place is like air con-ed... i play keeper there i'll never ever ever get tired.. LOL...

Problem is... i actually chao gan (cramp) over there cos it's cold and all... and knowing me, i ran up to score.. XD... so run half way i felt my muscle cramp and i went like "OMGOMG CHAO GAN!!!!"... people around me were like "whaaaaa..." and 2 seconds later, when it finally hit me, i was like "I MEANT... CRAMPPPPPP!!!!!!".. and they were like "OH OH OH....." sigh.. the malaysian blood LOL...

Met a new bunch of ppl today.. because it was the IBC (illinois (i almost wrote inti LOL) billards club) 1st meeting... sooo.. yeah.. met some more random people hahaha.. WAIT.. i CAN remember their names.... errrr... amy, rina, jay, clinton or something like that, andddd... errrr... kevin... andddddd... OMG I FORGOT HER NAME LOL... shitshitshit waittttt... sophie? i know i met a sophie here somewhere... oh crud.... T_T

Seriously... meeting one BIG BUNCH of people bunch after bunch is NOT easy kay... all their names.. can kill you.. T_T... oh i met a stephanie in accounts class... she thought i was from US.. it's either i can REALLY imitate a US accent, or... well.. it actually comes naturally d... LOL...

Seriously.. she sounded so surprised that malaysians speak english.. hrm... oh and the new ppl i met at pool.. 2 were from beijing, 1 from hong kong, one from guang dong, one from some other province, and one from macao.. or was it macau, however the hell u spell that larhhh LOL... so they were like saying, some can speak mandarin, kenot speak canton.. the hong kong one and the guang dong one mandarin not that good, but cantonese can speak.... then I was like.. I CAN SPEAK BOTH!! HAHAHAHA.... and they were like stunned... lol...

Suddenly i'm proud to be malaysian.. mix of EVERYTHING LOLOLOL..

Okay, i have to sleep.. it's 12.30am here.. check back soon~~~

Oh yeah...

That was my lunch today =)

Lifeless out~ =D

Sign of good things to come =)

Hey guys~!!!

Alright, i know i haven't updated in a while, and i have a perfectly good explanation for that....

I........................

Ok fine i don't have a perfectly good explanation for that lol.. i've kinda been playing sooooo much pool... and piano.... and meeting ppl and going for lunch and dinner with them... and freaking ppl out (yes i'm talking to you alina) with card tricks =D

Basically.. here's my usual schedulle.. Wake up about 7 something 8, come online to chat with the peeps in malaysia cos it'll be evening over there.. go to class at 10, yes, i have class EVERYDAY.. ok.. everyWEEKday, at 10.. then during free time i'll go and play pool in the union recreation room.... then go for whatever afternoon classes i have, most of which will end by either 3 or 4, then play pool till about 5 something 6, come back to the dorm, play piano till about 7 something 8, then look through notes for classes to come =) hardworking eh?..

I just bought all my books today.. effing 500+ USD sial.. that's like.. RM1.75k.. damn.. DO U KNOW HOW MANY HOURS OF POOL I CAN PLAY WITH THAT KINDA MONEY?!?!? sigh.. nvm nvm.. put to good use.. i'll get my 4.0 rawr.. =)

Went for dinner with some MaSA members and new friends.. FYI, MaSA = Malaysian Students Association... hahaha.. i didn't think i'd use BM at all over here.. hahaha.. but well.. yeah.. so met Victor (whom, i might add, would fit PERFECTLY well in EX).. alina, saffiyah, intan.. andddddd a few others whose names elude me.. lol i'm sowie...

Oh before that, Victor and Alina didn't believe that i could play the piano.. so i showed them some of the youtube vids i posted.. and since most of you who have watched my videos know that i don't show my face in the videos, they don't believe that it is me.. SOOOO they dragged me to a GRAND.. YES... AN EFFING GRAND PIANO... in the lounge of the Illini Union (that's the main big big building here), to play.. i was like... OMGGGGG A GRAND PIANOOOOOO.... just so u know, i've never really played one before (except once in avanda's house but that was close to midnight so i couldn't play loud T_T).. so i was like.. getting an adrenaline rush just sitting there.. victor opened up the piano so that we could see the strings in it.. and told me to play the most complicated piece i know to see the hammers move... (do u even call those things hammers LOL)..

SO.. i played one of the songs from secret by Jay Chow.. the one where he played and traveled back in time LOLOL.. after i finished they were like stunned.. i duno why i like the look on their faces LOLOL... SOMEHOW it just seems normal that a big size guy like me wouldn't be delicate and sensitive enough to play the piano sob sob..

So after that we went for dinner... i've never felt so ripped off in my life... other people order pasta they get BIG serving... i order i get some MINI shit like some kids meal wtf... sigh.. stupid people... AnYhOw... after dinner, Alina didn't believe that i could do card tricks... quote her after that "IS THERE ANYTHING THAT U CAN'T DO?!?!?) lol.. after i was done with all the tricks.. she was CERTAIN that i had black magic LOLOL.. she was literally freaked out by me k... i did the trick i did to kelly(the korean one) in KLIA b4 i left... i did it to alina.. and she LITERALLY SCREAMMMMMMED... no wait... SHRIEKEDDDD, at a crossroad at the traffic lights.. and EVERYBODY within a mile radius looked at us.. she threw the bag on the floor and shrieked LOLOL....

Other than thattttt.. i've been playing pool like crazy.. been on a winning spree... hahaa... my 1st tournament is an 8 ball tournament this saturday.. wish me luck guys... =)

OH GUESS WHAT... I'M PLAYING FUTSAL LATER!!! WOOHOOO!!!! time to show keeper skillz... =D but but but... i left my awesomely smelly gloves in malaysia.. (for good reason.. i wouldn't want my WHOLE luggage to stink LOL).. so guess i'm playing without gloves later.. nvm.. still can still can.. but 2 weeks never play d.. karat T_T sob sob...

what else is new... oh yeah pics are up on facebook... erm... latest recording of piano on youtube.. wait lemmie embed it here..... chilling ar......

Oright.. just like the description says.. this is a church hymn, Sweet Bye and Bye, which is my parents' favourite song.. and also my grandma's funeral song.. once again, forgive the VERY OBVIOUS MISTAKES i made at 1:06 and 4:00... somebody walked in the room and distracted me lolol...

What else... hrmmm... OHHHH i didn't talk about quad day... and the clubs that i actually DID join... OKAY!!! FUUUU~~~~~

So TO SUM IT UP, just so u ppl don't die of boredom reading this... I joined the billards club(that's american for pool club).. the illini poker club.. MaSA(i explined earlier d).. erm.. that's the MAIN ones.. oh wait and a DDR club.. YES... THEY HAVE A DDR CLUB ISN'T THAT AWESOMEEEEE HAHAHAHAHAHA

Other random clubs i joined was the japanese society (No u sick minded freaks, not for the girls or the hentai =.=) it was because i saw (IN BOLD)... FREE SUSHI NIGHT.. lolol.. hey, that's life man.. sushi is like the best food in the world hahahaa.... and i also joined some asian-american something something society... i wasn't that interested at 1st.. but this girl came up to me and started explaining... talk talk talk talk talk..... then i was looking at their posters and stuff.. i saw MAHJONG NIGHT... i was INSTANTLY interested to join... HAHAHAHA... and the girl was still talking... LOL... seriously... when i was writing my name down on the paper, she was STILL talking... my mouth came out "ahh.. mm... ohhh.." but inside my head was like.....

STFU BIATCH I JUST WANT THE MAHJONG LULULULULS....

hrmmm.. that's about it i guess... OH i didn't join the soccer club... because... they said "tryouts are tmr, we're gonna run from one end of campus to the other, the 1st 30 will be in.."..

i was like... GFY... =)

I REALLY need a phone.. for convinience purposes T_T... sigh..

Okay.. i think that's about it for now... i'll update when there are more stuff to update... expect my next update to be about classes and related lifeless nonsense =D

Peace out ya'll~~

Not bad day.. =)

Finally a decent day that wasn't emofying =D

Went to walmart again with my roomate and friends.. yes, the chinese speaking bunch of people.. DID i mention that they are like the EX of taiwan? like.. they have stupid nicknames for their friends, have stupid ideas to do stupid things, are DAMN DAMN DAMN lame.... and like... well.. basically.. EX larh.. lol.. put it this way, CJ joining EX is like me joining them, except the language is opposite LOL...

supposed to buy stuff for winter, but ended up just buying one sweatshirt, cos couldn't find anything LOL... came back about 5 something.. then i went to play piano again, this time, in a more open space, so i'm less emo (or more attention seeking) LOL.. met two new ppl.. Ruth and John.. =D..

Had a very long and interesting convo with Ruth, very nice and interesting person she is.. she asked what i like to do, i said i like to entertain people.. she said "well yeah i can see from the awesome piano playing, but what else you do?".. and i said.........

Pick a card.

and that went on for about an hour, she actually screamed.. like.. as bad as Kelly.. the korean one.. ahahaha.. ok larh.. best way to make friends here, mindf*ck them with card tricks HAHAHAHA...

ahhhhh.. my evening went well, i'm happy =) tomorrow is quad day.. THAT is like ECA(extra curricular activity) day, where all the clubs will have booths and all and we're supposed to just walk around and register and blah =D let's see what i have in mind to register for....

1)Pool club...
2)Soccer club...
3)Indoor soccer club...

4)Badminton club...

5)Chess club...

6)prolly a christian fellowship...

7)whatelse.... urhhh.... maybe a piano/music club....

8)choir maybe....

9)urh.. i duno.. i'll have to see what they have.... =D

apparently they have like 600++ clubs... i'm gonna have so much fun tmr =D wheeeeee..

Aite, i'm gonna recharge my hype for tmr =D peace out ya'll~~

Update~ whee =)

Just when i thought i was fine.. i was so happy i found out that the place i stay has like 3 pianos, a pool table, and other cool stuff.. one of the pianos was in a basement, that is like close to sound-proof from the outside.. which would mean i could bang on it as hard as i wanted, screamed like mad in that room and nobody could hear me.. fantastic..

So i thought i'd go play the piano.. being the piano loving person that i am =).. little did i know that it would send a whole shot of emo and nostalgia right through my heart, i actually started crying halfway through playing...

i've never played piano so emotionally in my life.. i went through all the songs that i could possibly remember how to play without sheet music.. songs like marrage d'amore and souvinir d'enfant from richard clayderman... my famous self modified canon in C/D, my piano cover of linkin park's new divide... fur elise, claudine.. all with full passion.. and then, i played tong hua... felt abit emo d.. then i played peng you.. tears started flowing d..... then since i already was like that, i remembered an advice from a friend of mine, "if u wanna cry, go all out.. don't hold it back"..

And i did.. i played peng you again.. this time i sang to it.. just in case u people don't know the lyrics, here are the english translation for u..

Peng You - Friend

Ze xie nian, yi ge ren
All these years, alone

Feng ye guo, yu ye zou
The wind has passed, the rain had gone

You guo lei, you guo cuo
There were tears, there were wrongs

Hai ji de jien chi shen me

Things we hold dear I still recall

Zhen ai guo, chai hui tong

If you’ve had true love, then you would know

Hui ji muo, hui hui shou

There is loneliness, there are goodbyes

Zhong you meng, zhong you ni

There are dreams, always there is you

Zai xin zhong

In my heart

Peng you yi shen yi chi zou

Friends walk this life together

Na xie ri zhi bu zhai you

Those days will not return

Yi ju hua, yi bei zhi

One word, one life

Yi shen ching, yi bei jiu

A lifetime relationship, a cup of wine

Peng you bu cheng gu tan gou

With friends you won’t be lonely

Yi shen peng you, ni hui dong
Lifelong friends, you’d understand

Hai you shang, hai you tong
There are wounds, there is pain

Hai yao zou
Must go our separate ways

hai you wo
Always there is me

Ok.. So i played my heart out, sang my heart out, and cried my heart out.. in a room in a basement where nobody can hear me.. and when i played finished.. i carried on crying, to my heart's content.. inside the room was SO silent, after i finished, it was TOTAL silence.. like COMPLETE silence.. it was eerie, but i appreciated the silence, it helps u to listen to the sound of silence.. i'm not kidding.. it was refreshing..

Then after that, i played a hymn, my dad's favourite song, Sweet Bye and Bye.. The very same song that was sung for my grandma's(dad's mom) funeral.. a random thought hit me that i'm never going to see my parents again.. I cried again, finished playing that piece, and went into prayer..

My friend was right, i did feel refreshed after the whole thing.. crying everything out DOES help u get better, ironically.. and by God's will, I will pull through this.. BUT WELL, God doesn't help ppl who don't help themselves, does He? SO I went to the dining hall and randomly made MORE new friends HAH.. =D

I met Christine earlier this afternoon, together with Mike and Jon, Madeline and Mari.. Christine is from HongKong, been here for 2 years, and speaks AWESOME english (despite being honkie XD), Mike and Jon were both from suburbs of Chicago, Madeline's from New York, Mari's from springfield..

Followed Christine to dinner, and met Kevin, Nate, Amber, Katie, and Ruth... Kevin's from Alabama, he has a freaking cool southern accent.. lol.. Nate's from some small town in Illinois, Amber and Katie are roomates, from urbana and some suburb respectively.. Ruth... ok i don't remember, i'm sorry... information overload k... T_T lol...

These people would be the 1st few people that i don't have to communicate in chinese with that i met since i got here.. =D Since i came here, met my roomate and his gang of friends, all from Taiwan, few guys and girls from few parts of China.. and err.. yeah... OH yeah, met erm... watz her name omg.. AH.. Cordelia, from Singapore =)

So refreshing to speak english at dinner today.. the past few days was chinese after chinese after chinese after chinese... gahhhh... lol.. not that i'm complaining, but i DID come to the US, not CHINA.. lol....

Well that's about the latest with me here.. i've registered for classes, classes starting next monday.. 24th.. =).. can't wait.. teehee...

Orite.. till the next update.. Lifeless ou....wait....

OMG TODAY IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUTSAL DAY!!! T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T ok i'm emo again.

out.

EX through the years..

Okay.. so zach gave me an awesome idea for a post.. he asked me to post up some pics of EX.. wanted to show his gf.. and since it's 10.27pm here and u ppl back in malaysia are prolly still sleeping.. i shall do a post on ex.. how it grew and shrunk and grew lolol....

This was the 1st ever picture of EX.. blow it up to zoom in.. =)

From left to right, standing : Sean Yap(captain), Nicholas Foo, Zachary Yeo, Eugene Lee, Chin Jee King, Maverick Loh, Calvyn Tan, Andrew Chu(MEEEEE!!), Chan Vern Sheng.

From left to right, squatting : Foo Shi Wei, Yong Shung Jiu, Yong Julian, Ian Yap, Son Win Keat, Chiang Shih Wei, Ryan Teoh, Xhen Jiun (sorry if i spell wrong)...

THIS... was taken in form 2.. see the young small cute innocent faces~~~ =)

1st row: Maverick, Me, Zach

2nd row: Eddy, Benjamin, Calvyn

3rd row: Chun Sin, Nicholas Lai, Robbee, Sean, Vern Sheng.

This was taken at Sean's place during Chinese new Year 2009 in conjunction with his Bday..

Left to right: Yung fei, Zach, Cal, Mav, Sean, Sam, Henning, Calson, Mei, Jo ee..

ME ON TOP!!! =D=D

This was taken in Cal's house, Chinese new year 2009 (yes we party alot during CNY, DEAL with it.. XD)

Top row, L-R: Alvin, Vern Sheng, Me

2nd row, L-R: Desiree, Yih Haur, Han Wei, Yung Fei, Julian, Adeline, Dani, Calvyn, Wan Theng, Cathy, Teck Weng, Zachary.

Sitting: Win keat, Shung Jiu, Maverick, Sean, Sam.

In KLIA for Calvyn's farewell.....

Top row:Sean, Me, Julian, Yih haur.

Bottom Row: Alvin, Teck Weng, Sam, Win Keat, Calvyn, Maverick, Zachary.
Still in Klia for cal's farewell~~

Top row:Mav, Julian, Calvyn, Me, Zachary, Sean, Yih Haur

Bottom row: Teck Weng, Sam, Win Keat, Alvin.

My last dinner with EX T_T

Top row: Teck Weng, Sam, Maverick, Sean, Robbee, Shung Jiu, CJ, Me, Julian.

Bottom row:Yih Haur, Win keat, Zachary.

EX celebrating Bday for Hui Yin =D

Top Row:Yih Haur, Zach, Sean, Hui Yin, Sam, Mav, Julian.

Bottom row: Cal, Hanwei, Me, Teckweng.

Graveyard EXpedition crew.. =)

clockwise from right: Zachary, Ryan, Shung Jiu, Me, Sam.

EX(at least one small part of it) went genting to find Sean's gf at-that-time.

Guys, L-R: Teckweng, FATyihu, Sean, Zach, Me, Han

Girl: Amanda Lee

Still in genting.. i posted this cos i like yihu's face =)

Cny dinner 2008.. at erm.. this place called rome.. no wait.. paris.. SOMEthing larh LOL

Top Row:FAThaur, Sean,Cal, Shungz, Mav, Josephine, Chinchin, Zach

Bottom row: Wanthend, Sam, Teckweng, Me.

OK guys, from here onwards i'll just talk about the place the pic was taken, since i've already mentioned all the names multiple times =) If there's anybody new i'll mention it don't worry =D

sEXy... in some beach with some weird cool name i don't remember luls..

EX-rempit in Phuket..

EX in bangla road, phuket.

EX in Black-sand-beach, Langkawi.

EX on top of mt Mat Cincang(701m), Langkawi.. WITH A FOOTBALL!! lol..

EX celebrating Lantern festival (which i'm gonna miss this year, and the next.. T_T)

Party for mav, sean, ryan 2008..

New faces: Left in cap-Albert, Between Mav and Shungz-Navin, Between Shi wei and Shungz-Chun Hean.

EXpedition to Port Dickson in the middle of the night.

EX getitng on a boat to some island in Phuket.

EX in the Bungalow/Beach house in that island in Phuket.

EX museum sleepover 2008~~
EX being stupid in Museum sleepover 2007
Museum sleepover 2007~

New faces: DIGI ppl, between digi ppl-Aunty Janet(sean's mom), below me, Amanda(teckweng's sis), next to winkeat-wilson(sufern's bf), next to him-sufern. lol.

oh and below eugene-sze mun(zach's at-that-time-gf)

Again, at museum sleepover 2007 =)

My birthday celebration at Yuens this year..

new faces: Girl in front-xiao =)

EX.. random decision to go up genting after my bday celebration, 2008..
EX being dumb in genting lol..

Genting~~~
Birthday celebration 2008.. or 07.. urh.. ONE of them larh lol.. ok if it's 07 then the genting ones were 07 also LOL..

ok u know what.. i think it's 07.. =) then wtf happened to my 08 bday?!?! =.=

Yihu's bday 2008 ini tgif, with ryan working =)

Yihu's bday in 2009.. in pizza hut sunway =)

Teckweng's bday.. 2009..

Shung jiu's bday 2008 in Holiday villa..
(omg this pic looks so backstreet boys-ish LOL)

EX new year celebration in the curve =D

Check out the date... SPM OVER!!! or just started.. LOL... ok i think it just started DAMN.. lol..

AND NOW... since I'm not in malaysia anymore~~~~~

This picture needs no explanations =D

AHH man... the good old times with EX... zach, i blame u for making me emo now.. it's 1am now here.. means it's 2pm for u ppl there... omg i took like... 10.30..11.30..12.30.. 2 and a half hours to finish this post.. omg lol.. well at least it's 2 and half hours put to good use..

Damn i miss u all so much.. T_T sigh.. i'll never find another gang like EX here in US =.=...

Shit i'm feeling emo.. i need something that i can look at and make me smile..

something like.....

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THIS!!!

It's ok sean.. we know u still love us =)

Missing u all badly, Lifeless out =(

Day 2 in US......

1st of all... let's start this post with something not so emo.... THEN i'll end it emo =(

ok.. for the not emo part.. OMG PORK SUBWAY ROCKS OMGOMGOMG... HAHAHAHAHAHA

omg larh malaysian subway sucks compared to this.. i'm sitting in subway now.. like.. NOW.. lol.. yes.. they have wifi.. EAT that malaysia lolol..

they have like 6 types of bread, and only one same like malaysia... others are like.. damn epic lol.. heard of monterey cheddar? it's a type of cheese apparently.. and it's a type of bread aso hahaha.. they have like.... 9-grain wheat, 9-grain honey oat, italian herbs and cheese.. blah blah omg so cool...

then u know normally in malaysia.. they ask want cheese anot.. it's like just 4 quarters of cheddar cheese rite.. here they'll ask u WHAT cheese u want.. got like monterey cheddar, natural pepper jack and natural provolone.. DON'T ask me what that is.. i aso have no idea.. lololol.. can choose cheese weihhhhh lol...

then their vege and sauses ar... walao.... heard of banana peppers? lol.. and their sauses.. here.. let me list them out... mustard, honey mustard, sweet onion, red wine vinegar, light mayonaise, chipotle southwest (no i have no damn idea what that is), ranch (don't know either), mayonaise and oil.. hahahahaha...

ok.. food is anti-emo agent.. lol..

back to more serious matters... i'm still damn homesick.. maybe cos my dorm is like as big as my toilet back home.. and like.. my bed is like... a mattress.. period. which reminds me.. i need to go buy a few pillows and a blanket.. and bedsheets... and blah..

ok i shall end this post now, b4 i start ranting about the emoness.....

i hope i don't cry myself to sleep again 2nite..

Lifeless out.

Lifeless Leaves Malaysia

Hey guys~~~

K.. I know it's been like more than half a year since i've updated.. and i'm sorry.. just ran out of nonsense to blog about.. BUT SINCE I'm in japan now.. and i'm bored.. I SHALL REVIVE THIS PLACE!!!

Remember to check back ya.. =D

for my 1st post after so goddamn long, i shall present an EMO EMO EMO poem that i wrote on the plane here..

yes, i cried.. deal with it =.=

A New Beginning

Here I am,

sitting in this seat;

Flying to a new life,

A new start, a new beat.

Just woke up,

Salty tears my eyes drip;

It's been so long

since I cried myself to sleep.

Watched a movie,

Confessions of a shopaholic;

Reminded of the importance of friendship,

Reminded me that loneliness, I'm HELL phobic.

Writing this out,

More tears roll down my cheeks;

Already missing my family,

my friends, my EX freaks.

I can't help it,

I'm now crying like hell;

It's a long long flight,

In my own tears i shall dwell.

I miss my parents,

the comforts of my home,

Slept in Changi airport last night.

no pillow, no bed, completely alone.

I miss my brothers,

Peter and James;

I miss my neighbours,

and my computer games.

I miss my band of brothers,

The one and only EX united;

Across seas we may be,

But never will we be seperated.

I will do my best

With God by my side;

I will conquer the states,

I will turn the tide.

In Jesus's name I sincerely pray,

Give me strength that I'll stand strong,

Give me courage to face this challenge,

Give my wisdom that I won't go wrong.

I haven't cried so hard so long,

I forgot how my tears tastes like;

I'm going to forget many stuff back there,

Like maybe how to ride my motorbike.

This poem marks a new beginning,

and the revival this lifeless place;

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for now LIFELESS OUT, into foreign space.